You know when you break out into a bit of a cold sweat and start shaking because your adrenaline is up?
We're at that point now.
Since the moment I opened my eyes this morning (well not at my 3 a.m. baby feeding/pumping hour), I've been kicked into high gear. I am running on fumes. That's what happens when you have a newborn and pump or feed a baby EVERY THREE HOURS.
Not in a million years would I have expected that a school board trustee would behave in the manner that Mike Dunn did this morning.
I've been consistent with my opinions. I understand that, for some, they are polarizing. That's life. That's ok. I don't have some false hope that everyone in the world will like me. That's no way to live. Speak your truth and find those that are ok with that. It's taken me a long time to get to that point and accept that. To be ok with knowing that there are people who will, with extreme infatuation, absolutely loathe me for my page and my opinions. Criticism isn't always fun to receive, but it comes with the territory, right?
I've barely eaten today. I've just been trying to keep up.
I'm reading comments from Dunn's supporters stating this is fake news and "the truth will come out." I'm so fascinated by the people who double down on their ignorance. Do they think that at 4 a.m. this morning I doctored up some emails? Like, I need to know. In what world is this fake news? What truth is coming out? You all have access to all of my post and all of my blogs, as well as the board meetings... which are ALL PUBLIC. You literally can't get more transparent than I have been. SO, again, even if you disagree with everything I've ever said... kindly, STFU.
I'm angry. Really angry. I have a week and a half left of my maternity leave. I spent the majority of my day dealing with a publicly elected official threatening my place of employment because I utilized my right to free speech at a public school board meeting.
Do you know how insane that is?
AND THERE ARE A TON OF OTHER ISSUES WE SHOULD BE TALKING ABOUT. The fact that a board trustee has spent this much time to attack my employment, and me indirectly via this email, is an absolute waste of time and district resources. I, as a private citizen and blogger can pine away all I want on one issue, or multiple issues. That's my choice. But why is a publicly elected representative who is supposed to be serving the district and all of the constituents in the district wasting time on my criticisms of his behavior? What a disservice that does our community to be quite honest.
I've been blocked out of my Facebook page for three days from (I'm assuming) Dunn supporters who went on a reporting rampage against my page after HE EMAILED AND THREATENED MY WORK. I'm still trying to wrap my head around anyone justifying this.
I've been fine all day, albeit inundated and on high adrenaline.
And now I'm exhausted. I'm exhausted and I also know I won't be sleeping tonight because, again, in addition to having a toddler, I have a four-week old who eats EVERY THREE HOURS. I'm trying to process and my brain is wired. The full weight of stress just now hitting me that I didn't even realize was there.
I'm pretty sure this isn't The Conejo Way.